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"The function of prayer is not to influence Æon,
but rather to change the nature of the one who prays."
Søren Kierkegaard

"I have told you that prayer is a virtuous act.
Eternal Soul and spirit of prayer are more virtuous than the form.
Through them we arrive at Union, in a way that only Æon knows."

"Prayer is our divine and innate connection with the fabric of reality,
the way that we write our free will upon the world." - Adam Lanka

Teresa Sanchez de Cepeda y Ahumada

It is important for beginners in prayer to start off by becoming detached from every category of satisfaction and to enter the path of prayer solely with the determination to help Jesus carry the cross.

I shall say nothing about things of which I do not have much experience.

Beginners must realize they are starting to cultivate a garden on very barren soil full of abominable weeds.

The Lord pulls up the weeds and plants good seed.

With the help of the Lord we must strive, like good gardeners, to get these plants to grow and take pains to water them so that they don't wither but come to bud, flower and give forth a most pleasant fragrance.

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Have You Ever Seen The Rain?

The Garden can be watered in four ways. You may draw water from a well, get water by means of a waterwheel and aqueducts, water may flow from a river or a stream or the water may be provided by rain from the heavens.

A Soul beginning to practice prayer will have begun to water the garden.

Rain from heaven often comes when the gardener is least expecting it, although it almost always occurs after a long period of prayer and reflection.

In mystical theology the intellect ceases to work as the Lord suspends it.

When the Lord suspends the intellect and causes it to stop, the Lord gives it that which holds its attention and makes it marvel.

Without reflection the Eternal Soul understands more in the space of a moment than the intellect can understand with diligence in many years.

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"The tendency of the intellect is to fabricate."

Henri Bergson

The Lord gave me, in a moment, crystal clear understanding, I knew how to explain the compassion the Lord grants through prayer in an amazing way.

Through prayer the Divine Spark of Life is recognized as the Eternal Soul.

The Lord desires the enlightenment of the Eternal Soul through compassion accompanied by delight.

For anyone who has not had the experience it is impossible to understand that this divine spark cannot be acquired, only discovered by searching the depths of the Eternal Soul.

The quietude and recollection of this divine spark of the Spirit of the Lord will be noticed no matter how small it is.

The intellect, eager for delight, is quickly left cold as no matter how much we desire to kindle the divine spark to obtain compassionate delight, we appear to be unable to do anything other than throw water on it and kill the fire.

If we do not extinguish it, through our own fault, this tiny divine spark is what will begin to enkindle in our Eternal Soul the large fire that throws forth the flames of the Compassion of the Lord.

Calmly and wisely the mind must understand that one does not deal well with the Lord by force and that our efforts are like the careless use of large pieces of wood which smother this tiny divine spark.

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I close my eyes.

Everything is in motion here.

The intellect representing.

Memory hurrying about.

For certainly these faculties tire me out from time to time.

Although I have a poor memory, I cannot subdue it.

One should realize this and humbly say: "Lord, what am I capable of here?"

One should pay no attention to the intellect, for it is a grinding mill.

The Eternal Soul may work to recollect the memory, for often it will find itself in this Mystical Union, calm while the intellect wanders aimlessly.

It is better that the Eternal Soul leave the intellect alone than chase it.

Remain in recollection and in enjoyment of Communion with the Lord.

If the intellect is keen it will compose speeches, search for ideas and it will think it is doing something important if those ideas are well expressed.

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"For the Eternal Soul without the mind can neither say nor do anything; for many times the mind flies away from the Eternal Soul, and in that hour the Eternal Soul neither seeth nor heareth, but is like an unreasonable thing; so great is the power of the mind." - Hermes Trimegistus

In those to whom this experience happens, the effects are remarkable!

One should not weary oneself in seeking reflections but just remain in His presence with the intellect quiet and bask in His compassion.

Intellect has a clear understanding that we are in the Presence of the Lord.

Now, in the Presence of the Lord, ask for deeper communion not with the noise of words but with longing for that response.

This mode of prayer includes many things in which more of the Compassion of the Lord is obtained than through a great deal of intellectual reflection.

In the beginning I was ignorant as I didn't know the Lord was in all things, though He seemed so present to me, I thought omnipresence was impossible.

I felt the presence of Him here in my own Eternal Soul.

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make ignorance history know yourself

Those who have no knowledge told me that He was present only by grace.

I could not believe this, as He was present; and so I was confused.

A knowledgeable man freed me from doubt, for he told me that the Lord was present and of how the Lord communicates Himself to our Eternal Soul.

When the Eternal Soul merely whispers, He hears.

It seems impertinent as we all know that the Lord always is here with us.

There is no doubt about His presence.

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The Lord desires for us to know that He loves us, that His presence is real, and that He wants to begin to work in the Eternal Soul in a special way.

There is a difference between the contentment the Lord grants from the delights of Earth.

The contentment the Lord grants fills the void our sin has carved out.

This contentment takes place in the very intimate depths of the Eternal Soul, and the Eternal Soul doesn't know where the contentment comes from.

The intellect thinks it has found everything, but knows not how it knows.

The Lord's radiant compassion causes no harm, no matter how long it lasts.

Nor do I recall the Lord ever having granted me His favor that I did not feel much better afterward no matter how ill I had been before.

The experience of feeling of the Lord's compassion leaves a rare detachment.

More than spiritual knowledge alone is involved.

For now that the mind is completely detached from things, it appears that the Lord wants to effect this detachment in the body itself, and there is brought about a new estrangement from worldly things.

There is a manifestation of the tremendous power of the Lord and of how we are incapable, when the Lord desires, of holding back the body any more than the Eternal Soul, nor is our intellect the Eternal Soul's master.

Rather, whether or not we wish, we see that there is One who is superior, that these favors are given by Him, and that of ourselves we can do absolutely nothing; deep humility is impressed upon the Eternal Soul.

From this experience comes the need to return to everyday life; wings have sprouted enabling one to fly with ease; the fledgling has shed its down.

The Eternal Soul ascends, taken up to the highest tower.

The Eternal Soul looks at those below as one who is out of danger.

In this state of divine grace the Eternal Soul sees very clearly now.

Fix the mind on true vision and everlasting wisdom.

Keep this wisdom always in mind, especially in the beginning.

Remember the short time everything lasts and how everything is nothing.

It becomes clear it is necessary to forget these things in order to live.

Intellectual humility is nothing in comparison with the true humility.

The Lord bestows a strong desire to advance in communion through prayer.

Eternal Soul, offering itself up, feels sure, while humble, that it is redeemed.

The Lord casts out servile fear and grants a feeling of awe.

Ascension of the Eternal Soul to the Lord is Ecstacy.

The body is left so light that all its weight is gone.

This feeling reaches such a point as to be compared with walking on clouds.

I was conscious in such a way that I could understand I was being elevated.

The brightness of the sun therein melts the spiritual corruption away.

The longest space of time in this suspension of all the senses is very short.

If it remain suspended for a half hour, this would be a very longtime.

As there is no accurate method of categorizing consciousness one finds it hard to know what is actually happening.

While seeking the Lord in this way, it feels with the most marvelous and gentlest delight that everything is almost fading away through type of swoon in which breathing and all the bodily energies gradually relax.

The Eternal Soul desires periods of solitude in order to enjoy this new found spiritual sustenance.

"The mind is wavering and restless,

difficult to guard and restrain

let the wise man straighten

his mind as a maker of arrows

makes his arrows straight


Awareness dawns, an understanding the depth of the Lord's compassion.

In arriving the Eternal Soul loses its craving for worldly things.

The beginning of all blessings is the compassion of the Lord.

The flowers of the garden are already at the point in which hardly anything is lacking for them to bud; and the Eternal Soul sees this very clearly.

To one who has no experience this explanation will appear confusing.

Hard to explain an experience one cannot even begin to put into words.

Only those who have had this experience will understand me, I do not know how to describe being raised up if it is not understood through experience.

The quiet and calm are not lost since the intellect is United with the Lord.

Senses distracted the will brings the intellect and memory back to recollection.

This quietude and recollection is something that is clearly felt through the peace bestowed on the Eternal Soul, along with complete contentment and calm and a very gentle delight in being alive.

Further prayer creates deeper union of the Eternal Soul with the Lord's endless compassion but what this union is, I do not know how to explain.

These matters are expounded in mystical theology; I do not know the proper words.

Neither do I understand what the mind is; nor do I know how it differs from the spirit and Eternal Soul.

Eternal Soul, mind and spirit all appear to be the same thing to me.

The way the Eternal Soul goes forth from itself is comparable to what happens when a fire is burning and flaming as it becomes a forceful blaze.

The flame then shoots very high above the fire, but the flame is not by that reason something different from the fire but the same flame that is in the fire.

I am attempting to explain what Eternal Soul feels when in Divine Union.

What Divine Union means is that two separate things become One in Spirit.

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"You spent all night crying, "My Lord! My Lord!"

He who heard your "My Lord' My Lord" has come.

Your grief lasted so long! Look, healing is here:

Your door was locked, look, here is the key.

You mourned and fasted before the Table of Heaven:

Break your fast now, for the new Moon is born.

Be silent, be silent, for by the command of Æon

The shock of amazement annihilates all words.


It frightens those whose intellects are concerned with things of the Earth that they have no intellect by which they can understand divine truths.

This category of union I wish to explain often happens especially to me since the Lord frequently gives me this category of favor.

The elevation of the spirit, or joining with heavenly compassion takes place within this very union.

For the Lord takes to Himself the will and even the intellect so that it might not engage in discourse but with rejoicing in Him like those who are now contemplating.

The memory remains free, but is merged with the imagination.

This union resembles the death agony with the difference that the suffering bears along with it great ecstacy.

It is an arduous, delightful martyrdom since it admits no earthly thing.

The Eternal Soul clearly understands that it desires only Union.

Just as joy suspends the senses, so it is suffering that suspends them here.

In this suffering the Eternal Soul is purified like gold in the crucible.

I can only say that the Eternal Soul appears to be joined to the Lord..

As the Eternal Soul basks in the Compassion of the Lord all the senses fail and they are so suspended that in no way does one think they are working.

If one is reflecting upon some scriptural event, it becomes as lost to the memory as it would be if there had never been any thought of it.

If one reads, there is no remembrance of what was read; nor is there any remembrance if one prays vocally.

Thus this bothersome little moth, which is the memory, gets its wings burnt here; it can no longer move.

The will, fully content basking in the Compassion of the Lord, doesn't understand how it desires this compassion.

The, intellect, if it understands, does not know how it understands; it cannot comprehend what it understands.

The Eternal Soul is left with such freedom over all things that it does not even know itself.

The Eternal Soul does not know how so much good was given it, but it well understands the tremendous benefit that each of this joyful ecstasies bears with it!

No one believes this if they have not experienced it!

When thought is in bondage

Truth remains Hidden,

everything is murky and unclear,

the burdensome practice of judging

brings annoyance and weariness."

Hsin Hsin Ming

The Eternal Soul becomes obsessed with serving the Lord not just a little but as much as it can although these desires do not spring from the Eternal Soul but from the Lord to whom the Eternal Soul has given the keys.

As virtue grows stronger the Lord begins to perform great deeds by means of the fragrance the flowers give.

The Lord desires that they bloom so that the Eternal Soul may see that it possesses virtue.

The Eternal Soul is very clearly aware that it could not have acquired this virtue in and of itself.

In that moment the Eternal Soul understands the heavenly Gardener granted these favors through divine mercy and divine grace.

The Eternal Soul understands that it is enjoying a good in which are gathered together all goods, but this good is incomprehensible.

All the senses are engaged in this joy in such a way that none is free to be taken up with any other exterior or interior thing.

Here the humility that remains in the Eternal Soul is much greater and more profound than in the past.

We see sin binds us into spiritual corruption and holds us in its power.

Although we desire to always be in union with the Lord our lack of faith in Union binds us to rational dissociative thought.

And yet the Eternal Soul begins to be of benefit to its neighbors almost without knowing it or doing anything of itself.

Other Eternal Souls recognize this Eternal Soul because now the fragrance of the flowers has reached the point in which it attracts many other Eternal Souls.

In regard to thinking of wordly things, the Lord granted me the favor to understand the truth that my reflecting on things of this Earth would require no small amount of boldness.

Other individuals will benefit from such reflection, especially if they have gone through studies.

In my opinion a background of studies is like a treasure to aid in this practice of union with the Lord if the studies are accompanied by humility.

I hold that:

Discretion is required in everything;

Those who in fact risk all for the Lord will find that they have both lost all and gained all;

The intellectual mind clearly understands that ascension is given to the Eternal Soul so that it may ascend;

Spiritually corrupt individuals have a tremendous fear of true knowledge which is accompanied by humility and virtue;

There is now one living who sees directly the great illusion in which we walk and the blindness in which we suffer;

Spiritual corruption will not deceive with illusions the individual of prayer who consults honest knowledgeable men, unless this individual wants to be deceived;

If the Lord has given you the grace to enjoy His compassion, you will through your intelligence and knowledge understand what is being said here;

It is one grace to receive the Lord's favor; another, to understand which favor and grace it is; and a third, to know how to describe and explain it;

One does not know how to speak of union with the Lord, nor do I think anyone will believe me or understand it is possible unless they have experienced it themselves;

If by nature someone is loving and grateful, the memory of the previous favors the Lord has granted does more to bring such a individual back to the Lord than all the infernal punishments imaginable;

Frequently the body is made healthy and stronger for it was really sick and full of great sufferings because something wonderful is given to the Eternal Soul in this union with the Lord!

How great is the true knowledge of the Eternal Soul brought to ecstacy by the Compassion of the Lord; it beholds everything without being ensnared!

How ashamed it feels of the time when it was ensnared!

How frightened of its blindness!

What pity it feels for those who are still in this blindness, especially if they are individuals of prayer.

The Eternal Soul wants to cry out in order to make known how deceived they are.

Sometimes the Eternal Soul even does so and a thousand persecutions rain down upon upon it.

Teachers consider this individual lacking in humility, especially if she is a woman, and point out that she desires to teach the one from whom she should be learning.

As a result they condemn this Eternal Soul because they do not know the loving impulse that moves it.

For at times the mind can not endure disillusioning those whom it loves and desires to be set freed from the prison of spiritual corruption.

The spiritually corrupt life it formerly lived was nothing else than a prisoner's life; nor does it appear to the Eternal Soul to have been anything other than a prison.

The Eternal Soul deplores the time in which it was concerned about its reputation and deplores the deception it suffered in believing that what men called 'honor' was true honor.

The Eternal Soul sees how this belief about 'honor' is the greatest lie and that all of us are involved in it.

The Eternal Soul understands that authentic honor stands not with error but with Truth.

The Eternal Soul laughs to itself over the time when it esteemed money and coveted wealth, it was fault enough to have esteemed it.

If with money I could have bought the good I now see in myself, I would have esteemed it highly; but I see that this good is won by giving up everything.

What is it we buy with this money we desire?

Is it some thing valuable?

Is it something lasting? Oh, why do we desire it?

Miserable is the rest achieved that costs so dearly.

Frequently one obtains hell with money and buys everlasting fire and pain.

In spite of what I am, I experience great consuming impulses to tell this truth to those who are rulers.

This Eternal Soul recognizes well, from far off, those who have only a lot of words and those who have confirmed their words with works.

It understands the small amount of good that the former do and the great amount the latter do and this is something that anyone who has experience sees very clearly.

The more that compassion and humility grow, the greater the fragrance of these flowers of virtue give off, both for oneself and for others.

It is true that in this joyful ecstasy the Lord can work in the Eternal Soul in such a way that only a little labor is still required in order that it reach epiphanous contentment.

In my opinion no effort of ours brings us to epiphanous contentment.

I became so accustomed to understanding what Truth is that everything else appears to it to be shadowplay.

I sometimes laugh to myself when I see seriously relgious and prayerful individuals making a big issue out of dogma.

They claim that the dissemination of dogma is important so that they might bring about more good.

They would bring about more good in one day than they would in ten years if for the Lord they thought a lot less of the prestige of their office.

From the time the Lord began to grant me His favor up until now, His fortitude has always been increasing; and in His goodness He has held me in the palm of His hand so that I might not turn back.

I understand clearly that it is the Lord who does everything.

Hence it appears to me that an Eternal Soul upon whom the Lord bestows these favors will receive them with humility always understanding that it is the Lord Himself who grants them.

We ourselves could now be placed in the company of any distracted group of people and the Eternal Soul will not be distracted or coerced.

This is now a strong Eternal Soul that the Lord chooses to benefit others, even though the fortitude doesn't come from the intellect.

Little by little, as the Eternal Soul approaches the Lord in this stage, He communicates to it very deep secrets.

When my Eternal Soul reached the stage where the Lord granted it such great favor by unifying my Eternal Soul with the Soul of the Lord, the spiritual corruption in me disappeared as the Lord gave me strength to break away from it.

Teresa Sanchez de Cepeda y Ahumada

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